It seams everyone has a blog these days. I started my blog over a year ago and made only 1 post. Great intentions but fell short on the follow through. That plus a toxic job and continual struggles coping with the death of my daughter caused me to not care for much of anything. I take that back...I cared...as much as an overworked, overly stressed grieving mother could. I just couldn't find joy in much of anything. Depression was my 'new normal' and I felt trapped - unable to move to a place of peace (let alone joy).
Now, I will admit that before the job from hell and the loss of my daughter, I have, for as long as I can remember, struggled with myself...'I'm not thin enough to wear that'...'I can't wear my hair up because everyone will see the scars from my car accident'...always: I can't this and I shouldn't that...I wish I was more this or less that. The epitomy of practicality; always considering what others would think of me and usually coming out on the negative viewpoint. Translation: I'm not good enough. I can't accept me for me until...well, until I become a better 'me' (anyone know when that will be?!). I'm sure a shrink would love to dig into this psyche for a while! Yikes!
So where am I going with this? In a new direction! I named my blog a year ago and honestly don't remember my intent for the name. But today, I begin my blogging to share with you my journey towards understanding (and accepting!) who God made me to be...my purpose on this earth...and hopefully (finally) inner peace. To live life accordingly - one day at a time. Join me. We can travel together!
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